January 25, 2026
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Question: Do you have Mental Fatigue?
The population whether working or not has us wondering why we are so tired. I was on the telephone with a hotline number for behavioral health. I was the caller, and the receiver mentioned ‘mental fatigue’ (Anonymous, 2026). I realized everyone has mental fatigue from the pandemic. I predicted the pandemic when I was approximately six years old. I was reading a book and learned the word ‘pandemic.’ I walked up to my parent and said, “We’re going to have a pandemic in this lifetime.” She said, “Oh, yeah?” I said, “Yup.” I went back to my bedroom and continued to read. This was on a sunny day and warm outside.
I became a registered nurse by the age of 26 years old. I put myself through nursing school via a grant from Sally Mae. I paid $5,000.00 for my associate’s degree in science. I worked full-time on the night shift and went to classes starting sometimes at eight o’clock in the morning. I would go home after my morning class; sleep; take care of the home front as best I could and tend to myself before returning to an afternoon class at one o’clock. I was on a bowling team before returning to work at 11:00 PM. Towards the end of earning my degree in nursing, I did not even have enough time to do the dishes. I had no help. I was just too busy to do the dishes. Today, I have a dishwasher. I started washing dishes at a ripe age of being able to reach the kitchen sink having taken on chores! Thank you, inventors, for dishwashers. I became a caretaker by the age of eight years old.
We learn to prioritize throughout life. During the pandemic we used paper plates and threw out a used pen showing up on housekeeping cart in the hospital (by me) to a dropped nasal swab on the floor in hospitals by a RN who used the same fallen swab on me. The lab result was negative that time. We worked on overdrive during COVID-19. We had to save our lives. We also had to bury the dead. Here is one thing I thought of though – where were all the funeral processions? I hardly saw any funeral processions on the streets, yet people were dying at the motel.
Please take care of yourself, today. Place yourself as a priority. We all must save ourselves. It is so easy to just wash your hands to stop the spread of diseases. If you are unable to sing happy birthday to yourself for the length of time to wash your hands for or at least wash your hands for 20 seconds with soap, then you are too tired and may have mental fatigue. See your doctor. Make the time. Take the time away from giving to others and protect yourself. I am stepping away from codependency, too. I give you permission to take care of yourself.
Someone once told me to take care of myself. I did not know how to take care of myself because I did not know what I wanted to do. I used to be a triathlete, and my mind used to race. I cannot run anymore. A miracle.
Second chances enhance our lives by allowing us to embrace the unfathomable. I used to stutter when I was a kid. Someone told me to sing because it helps the stutter to go away. My stuttering went away. It worked! Other things work, too. We all just must find out what works for us. Sometimes the difficulty in taking a suggestion can be gruesome because we fear the outcome or if I am better how will I be torn down again as if I am an old school; a tree; a run over street sign; or missing signage. Things go wrong in everyone’s life. The pandemic went right, I believe. Mother Nature took the course she needed to take to replenish the earth from what I wrote about in 2013 titled the ‘M’ Movement which stands for The Medication Movement such as psychotropics which are prescribed by providers abundantly in human trafficking and or euthanasia in particular humans conceived by rape whether violent or nonviolent.
Whatever the problem is there is a solution. Besides taking care of myself I also had a resentment against the word ‘TRY.’ As in to try this drug or try that drug. I thought prescribers were legal drug pushers. I was a pill popper administering to patients. Now, I am compliant in pill popping for myself following doctor’s orders. There are a ton of side-effects all of which cause drowsiness, fatigue, decreased concentration, shortness of breath, swelling, obesity, dry eyes, dry mouth, etcetera. I had a resentment against the word ‘MEDICINE’ because the third syllable sounds like ‘sin.’ The lawyer put up a fight by the courthouse demanding me to take medicine because I sinned. I do not want to take a drug. Opioids include psychotropics according to a study I read a long time ago. I am tired so I am going to stop here and allow the readers to contemplate a patient’s right to refuse which is the law. I am capable yet disabled from working full-time as defined by the Social Security Administration (SSA.gov, 2026) due to my medical records. Part of a vulnerable population, we need more time than others to take care of ourselves after a crisis; unplanned event; or aftermath.
I have more to say:
If you are feeling tired of life you may have mental fatigue from the pandemic. Before the pandemic, the emergency room doctor administered Intravenous Therapy of Normal Saline to me due to having malaise and fatigue (more than once). This happened in different states. One time was when I was in Missouri. Another time I was in Massachusetts. I saw emergency room doctors. A doctor administered IV therapy in North Carolina, also. Two bags here and two bags there. Malaise and fatigue are a diagnosis in the medical field, today. I had my stomach pumped from taking psychotropics as prescribed. Another time I had volatile vomiting from one pill (International Overdose Awareness Day, 2026).
I would like to bring this document up to grade level 8 for public school reading according to the Flesch Kincaid Grade Level. So, I will add that Normal saline is 0.9% of NaCl which is a sterile isotonic solution of nine grams of sodium chloride in one liter of water; necessary for the cells to be normal versus hypo-osmotic or hyper-osmotic. Hypo means the cells are bigger than such as in inflammatory reactions to a foreign substance, poison, or other. Hyper means the cells are shrinking such as in dehydration. Traveling for extended periods of time or exercising extensively may cause dehydration. This is preventable by hydrating with replacement of water and salt which excrete through sweating, diarrhea, shock, and vomiting. And such as having salt on the corner of your mouth after playing basketball.
If you are run-down considering your career ending and feeling doom, you may take a sabbatical or apply for short-term disability through work benefits which you have paid for via your taxes paid from gross income to net income.
I have taken care of myself as best I could except, I needed ability because I no longer go alone. Prescribers, please consider decreasing your aggressiveness in treatment. Why do they always want to “up it?” Stop overdosing. First, a therapeutic dose is not calculating science by “two weeks.” The dose should be according to height and weight. A person who is obese is also malnourished which in fact would lead to a requirement of a decreased dose. I feel my automatic positive airway pressure (APAP) machine has proven me right. I have been using my APAP machine since 2007 except for when I was homeless. A little bit of sarcasm and frustration…yes, I have two weak arms and two weak legs. At this point, week…weak…same thing! Take it yourselves if you are dishing it out.
I have every right to yell, scream, curse, and complain while suffering bodily harm; injury; and internal injuries which are permanent. I do not ingest pain pills or NSAIDS which are non-steroidal anti-inflammatory drugs. I have a doctor’s order from a psychiatrist in Bangor, Maine which will stay on my medical record forever to avoid NSAIDS. This means I do not take Tylenol which is the brand name for acetaminophen also known as APAP abbreviated in the medical field. Yes, there are two ‘APAP’ abbreviations yet deciphered by the use in context and in conjunction with the treatment plan; care plan; a set of ideas; interventions; and new outcomes to be resulting without insult to injury.
There is more than one doctor; social worker; and including the Catholic church who have wanted me to stop taking the psychotropics since 1998. I have dialed Mass 2-1-1 from my mobile device which is not a toy. Mobile phones are to still be safe and managed accordingly to a set of skills; intelligence; operations; rules; and calling features.
MEANDER is a word which reminds me of a web constellated from a spider copying the astronomy of the sky. The spider has critiqued and mastered the galaxy by molecular repetition of the web to catch its prey in a small town over yonder. I use my mobile device as a modular in catching criminals, stalkers, betrayal, and evidence of those who set forth against me. I use my mobile device as a wireless modem to relay ALL my thoughts, ideas, and continued journey. Refer to the Gestalt Laws (Quin, 2026):
Every person can draw conclusions; move closer to; move apart from; and either become enmeshed; entangled; or pivot towards togetherness. We can meander and mend ourselves through a journey of self-discovery. I use Eye Movement Desensitization Reprocessing (EMDR) which I understand draws a feeling along the notion of Gestalt Laws resulting in conclusions. We all make mistakes except I will hold myself responsible. I do not believe so much in punishments as I do positive and negative reinforcement. Pavlov’s Theory is to give the dog a bone. In music, every good boy deserves fudge. What about me? Do not I get any? As a registered nurse, I catered to the patient even when I saw him in the hospital bed cuffed to the bed rails with security guards standing beside him and one at the door of the patient’s room. I loved all my patients with patience.
When we are exhausted, we make the wrong decision. Yet, best to get rest. I, however, decided to withdraw from the medicine. I vacated a sick society and meandered across the entire US of ‘A’. I lived outdoors for > five years. I had a pineal brain cyst. My primary doctor (I love doctors) ordered a Magnetic Resonating Image (MRI) of my brain because my body temperature dropped to 91.8 degrees Fahrenheit in the US Metric system. I believe the outdoors…Mother Nature’s forces heal the living body. So, I meandered. I am tired of meandering so now I am typing this document all day and night (Saturday – Sunday). My back is killing me from sitting in the computer chair for so long at my desk. I met with the endocrinologist this week. She told me the pineal brain cyst did not appear in the image evaluated by the radiologist as being in the image of my last MRI or scan of my brain which was a couple of years ago. When I was homeless before, during, and after the pandemic I felt like I metamorphosed. I was in a run-down motel in Lumberton, North Carolina. I felt extremely comfortable there. The owner Avi asked me if I wanted to work there. I was in my motel room when I felt the pineal brain cyst break. The fluid ran down the center of my brain. I felt the dripping sensation within my skull and heard a slight sound which was like a soft crunch. I had been staring at the sunshine through the motel window. My temperature dropped to 94.2 degrees Fahrenheit at that time; twice within a week. My face was ashen grey when I looked at myself in the mirror. I did not go to the emergency room at the given time because I wanted to die in peace. Hurray! I lived; just for you! I informed the endocrinologist the pineal brain cyst broke.
I had an MRI of my brain yesterday and am still waiting for the results. I had a mammogram this week. I received the results which are nonpathological. I looked at the monitoring screen in the exam room while in the hospital robe, still. I saw the screen; my breasts; and white spots. I said, “Oh, those are just fibroids or cysts. They go away.” I always believe the body can heal itself. Sometimes with the help of others; Mother Nature as my source of ALL ultimate and leading conduct within my body; a temple. I am a child of G-d. The results showed cysts are present. I can palpate the cysts within the tissue. My mammogram was to follow through with my annual exam per doctor’s orders. I am most compliant.
I wonder what the cysts are from. I Googled ‘are the breasts eyes of rays and cones absorbing the sunshine?’ I did not read the answer. I have concluded they are absorbing the sunshine rays. The surgeon told me when I was working in the hospital as a RN the dark spots or shadows are the ones on the imaging to worry about. I consider myself a plant of life which needs keeping; whispers of sanity; and discharge from unpleasant particles. Light enters thine visual eyes replenishing the soul of the body. I like to transfer myself from various stages of belonging. I traveled afar. This is an example of a meander supplied on this site as a courtesy of the WordPress platform:
I walked over crested lava flows in Hawaii. I walked in a jungle. While sleepwalking I fell to the howling of a pack of wolves in Maine passing through a field. I completely surrendered in the snow.
One image of my mammogram (Anushree Agrawal, 2026) (shown here):
Mammogram of Julia Elaine Provencial
UMASS Marlborough Hospital Marlborough, Massachusetts 01752.
Get yours, today! People, alike.
There are three cysts which would break and absorb into the tissue. I had a Bible Cyst on the dorsal side of my right hand when I was a teenager. I broke the cyst by palpating the lump in a circulation motion repeatedly for day after day. The cyst disappeared. The doctor said the cyst was a Bible Cyst because the old remedy was to take a bible and break the cyst with the bible hitting hard against the cyst. Speaking of bibles, I never believed in swearing on the bible in the courthouse. We used to have the bible held (by another person) for us to place our left hand on and our right hand raised to swear ourselves into the courthouse. Also, marriage is just a piece of paper. Marriage is an institution. I am not that old. It is just that I started young. If you go back to the image of my breast you may see the form of a profile. I am loving my inner child and not without.
Back to science and the causes of nature and natural defects. ‘Bipolar’ is a formal word in education interchangeable within the medical field of science. Depicted in the following picture which I am also interested in and have written about rods and cones of the eyeballs, myself is: ‘Bipolar’ cells (INTRODUCTION TO NEUROSCIENCE 29. VISUAL SYSTEM: THE EYE, 2026):
Bipolar means two poles. I originally learned in elementary school due East or West and North or South. Moods drift amidst the humans amongst the ground. When I am flying in an airplane or jet, I feel lighter; my day escapes me; and I fly through the heavens. Heaven is not only in the sky. I agree with my professor from Mount Wachusett Community College in Gardner, Massachusetts 01440 – heaven is above the surface of the ground, also. Gravity makes physical pain more difficult to bear. I love floating in the water. I loved experiencing buoyancy when scuba diving in Hawaii, HI. I loved my life until people came at me from every direction. So, I left. I ran away as an adult from treacherous circumstances to homelessness where I could do what I wanted; go where I wanted; and escape from the treacherous souls who also lost out during the mixed directions of the passing storms. I have weathered eyes. I am making the best life post the pandemic. If your eyes are tired place a cold sliced cucumber over your eyes whether you are blind or nonblind. I strongly recommend start reading continuously to occupy your thoughts towards yourself in silence. “Mute your emotions” someone told me when I was a child. My biggest escape as of recent was to start watching television. Not for me! I just received my television cover for the screen of my TV. I not only felt like I was watching someone else I felt like I was. An old wise joke once asked of me – does the television know how to tell time? Next enjoy my Electronic Artwork (EA) created by drawing on a Sketchbook APP. I love drawing on an electronic platform. Anyone can do so. I want to draw EA for the rest of my life except I am a poor artist and musician. Believe me, though I have gotten all the support I needed through interventions and the passersby. Call me a gerrymanderer who is manipulating by use of EA for recognition, a Comic strip by Julia Elaine Provencial. I enjoy spreading humor to hopefully thousands of people in my new career of arts and entertainment.
Me Ink is a form of Electronic Art (EA) originated and drawn by me; Julia Elaine Provencial (here):
See the television cover on my TV set along with instruments on the shelf for self-soothing techniques about self-care of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) (next):
I will be opening an online store called a purchase on demand (POD store) for one month to discover how much of a demand there will be for my products to wear and wear out over lengthy time! I have the products in hand for myself to wear for free advertising and word-of-mouth.
My business was In Motion and was word-of-mouth, also. In Motion still has > 34,000 followers according to Google Analytics. I changed my business name to MEANDERthis New Year; a great one for the horse of 2026.
I hope you support me via online shopping. Here is my Logo, business name, and motto:
I hope you relish your time spent on me. The Flesch Kincaid Grade Level of this document is 6.5. In conclusion.
Develop. Rest your eyes. One last reference on the eyes. The neurotransmitter for the pathway and recessive or partial catalyzation of eye activity which happens per the Krebs’s Cycle is Glutamate (Henley, 2026). In my own words, stuck on you like glue (Anonymous)!
Please use the following links I listed from MASS2-1-1; the Drug Enforcement Agency; and the Social Security Administration as I have in the past whether you are or were a provider (which I was); on the streets (which I was); in the medical field (which I was); or a consumer (which I was):
https://www.ssa.gov/applyfordisability/index.htm
For storm-related information and warming center locations
please dial 2-1-1.
2-1-1 is for resources; legal aid; shelters; call2talk; food security; domestic violence help; utility assistance; transportation; child care services; child care wait list; ; children requiring assistance (CRA); youth homelessness; emergency / disaster information; and to answer questions (MASS 2-1-1, 2026).
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Julia Elaine Provencial
I Live Everywhere I Am.
MEANDER
Post Office Box 212, Marlborough, Massachusetts 01752-3429
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References
Anonymous. (2026, January 13). Hotline call. Massachusetts Behavioral Health Help Line. Taunton, Massachusetts, United States of America: Julia Elaine Provencial.
Anushree Agrawal, M. (2026). MAM Bilateral Screening Digital Mammogram With Tomo. Marlborough: UMass Memorial Health myChart.
Henley, C. (2026, January 25). 21. Vision: The Retina. Retrieved from Libraries Michigan State University: https://openbooks.lib.msu.edu/neuroscience/chapter/vision-the-retina/
International Overdose Awareness Day. (2026, January 24). Retrieved from United States Drug Enforcement Administration: https://www.dea.gov/ioad
INTRODUCTION TO NEUROSCIENCE 29. VISUAL SYSTEM: THE EYE. (2026, January 24). Retrieved from Libraries MICHIGAN STATE UNIVERSITY: https://openbooks.lib.msu.edu/introneuroscience1/chapter/vision-the-retina/
MASS 2-1-1. (2026, January 24). Connect People to the Help They Need. Retrieved from MASS 2-1-1: https://support.unitedway.org/page/211
Quin, W. w. (2026, January 2026). Let Your Creative Juices Flow. Retrieved from WordPress.com: https://quin2208.wordpress.com/assignments/
SSA.gov. (2026, January 24). Apply Online for Disability Benefits. Retrieved from The United States Social Security Administration: https://dap.digitalgov.gov/Federated.js.map